When I reached London I found waiting for me an urgent request that I should go to Mrs Stricklands as soon after dinner as I could.I found her with Colonel MacAndrew and his wife.Mrs Stricklands sister was older than she,not unlike her,but more faded;and she had the efficient air,as though she carried the British Empire in her pocket,which the wives of senior officers acquire from the consciousness of belonging to a superior caste.Her manner was brisk,and her goodbreeding scarcely concealed her conviction that if you were not a soldier you might as well be a counterjumper.She hated the Guards,whom she thought conceited,and she could not trust herself to speak of their ladies,who were so remiss in calling.Her gown was dowdy and expensive.
Mrs Strickland was plainly nervous.
‘Well,tell us your news’,she said.
‘I saw your husband.Im afraid hes quite made up his mind not to return.’I paused a little.‘He wants to paint.’
‘What do you mean?’cried Mrs Strickland,with the utmost astonishment.
‘Did you never know that he was keen on that sort of thing?’
‘He must be as mad as a hatter’,exclaimed the Colonel.
Mrs Strickland frowned a little.She was searching among her recollections.
‘I remember before we were married he used to potter about with a paintbox.But you never saw such daubs.We used to chaff him.He had absolutely no gift for anything like that.’
‘Of course,its only an excuse’,said Mrs MacAndrew.
Mrs Strickland pondered deeply for some time.It was quite clear that she could not make head or tail of my announcement.She had put some order into the drawingroom by now,her housewifely instincts having got the better of her dismay;and it no longer bore that deserted look,like a furnished house long to let,which I had noticed on my first visit after the catastrophe.But now that I had seen Strickland in Paris it was difficult to imagine him in those surroundings.I thought it could hardly have failed to strike them that there was something incongruous in him.
‘But if he wanted to be an artist,why didnt he say so?’asked Mrs Strickland at last.‘I should have thought I was the last person to be unsympathetic to-to aspiration of that kind.’
Mrs MacAndrew tightened her lips.I imagine that she had never looked with approval on her sisters leaning towards persons who cultivated the arts.She spoke of‘culchaw’derisively.
Mrs Strickland continued:
‘After all,if he had any talent I should be the first to encourage it.I wouldnt have minded sacrifices.Id much rather be married to a painter than to a stockbroker.If it werent for the children,I wouldnt mind anything.I could be just as happy in a shabby studio in Chelsea as in this flat.’
‘My dear,I have no patience with you’,cried Mrs MacAndrew.‘You dont mean to say you believe a word of this nonsense?’
‘But I think its true’,I put in mildly.
She looked at me with goodhumoured contempt.
‘A man doesnt throw up his business and leave his wife and children at the age of forty to become a painter unless theres a woman in it.I suppose he met one of your-artistic friends,and shes turned his head.’
A spot of colour rose suddenly to Mrs Stricklands pale cheeks.
‘What is she like?’
I hesitated a little.I knew that I had a bombshell.
‘There isnt a woman.’
Colonel MacAndrew and his wife uttered expressions of incredulity,and Mrs Strickland sprang to her feet.
‘Do you mean to say you never saw her?’
‘Theres no one to see.Hes quite alone.’
‘Thats preposterous’,cried Mrs MacAndrew.
‘I knew I ought to have gone over myself’,said the Colonel.‘You can bet your boots Id have routed her out fast enough.’
‘I wish you had gone over’,I replied,somewhat tartly.‘Youd have seen that every one of your suppositions was wrong.Hes not at a smart hotel.Hes living in one tiny room in the most squalid way.If hes left his home,its not to live a gay life.Hes got hardly any money.’
‘Do you think hes done something that we dont know about,and is lying doggo on account of the police?’
The suggestion sent a ray of hope in all their breasts,but I would have nothing to do with it.
‘If that were so,he would hardly have been such a fool as to give his partner his address’,I retorted acidly.‘Anyhow,theres one thing Im positive of,he didnt go away with anyone.Hes not in love.Nothing is farther from his thoughts.’
There was a pause while they reflected over my words.
‘Well,if what you say is true’,said Mrs MacAndrew at last,‘things arent so bad as I thought.’
Mrs Strickland glanced at her,but said nothing.She was very pale now,and her fine brow was dark and lowering.I could not understand the expression of her face.Mrs MacAndrew continued:
‘If its just a whim,hell get over it.’
‘Why dont you go over to him,Amy?’hazarded the Colonel.‘Theres no reason why you shouldnt live with him in Paris for a year.Well look after the children.I dare say hed got stale.Sooner or later hell be quite ready to come back to London,and no great harm will have been done.’
‘I wouldnt do that’,said Mrs MacAndrew.‘Id give him all the rope he wants.Hell come back with his tail between his legs and settle down again quite comfortably.’Mrs MacAndrew looked at her sister coolly.‘Perhaps you werent very wise with him sometimes.Men are queer creatures,and one has to know how to manage them.’
Mrs MacAndrew shared the common opinion of her sex that a man is always a brute to leave a woman who is attached to him,but that a woman is much to blame if he does.Le cur a ses raisons que la raison ne connait point.
Mrs Strickland looked slowly from one to another of us.
‘Hell never come back’,she said.
‘Oh,my dear,remember what weve just heard.Hes been used to comfort and to having someone to look after him.How long do you think itll be before he gets tired of a scrubby room in a scrubby hotel?Besides,he hasnt any money.He must come back.’
‘As long as I thought hed run away with some woman I thought there was a chance.I dont believe that sort of thing ever answers.Hed have got sick to death of her in three months.But if he hasnt gone because hes in love,then its finished.’
‘Oh,I think thats awfully subtle’,said the Colonel,putting into the word all the contempt he felt for a quality so alien to the traditions of his calling.‘Dont you believe it.Hell come back,and,as Dorothy says,I dare say hell be none the worse for having had a bit of a fling.’
‘But I dont want him back,’she said.
‘Amy!’
It was anger that had seized Mrs Strickland,and her pallor was the pallor of a cold and sudden rage.She spoke quickly now,with little gasps.
‘I could have forgiven it if hed fallen desperately in love with someone and gone off with her.I should have thought that natural.I shouldnt really have blamed him.I should have thought he was led away.Men are so weak,and women are so unscrupulous.But this is different.I hate him.Ill never forgive him now.’
Colonel MacAndrew and his wife began to talk to her together.They were astonished.They told her she was mad.They could not understand.Mrs Strickland turned desperately to me.
‘Dont you see?’she cried.
‘Im not sure.Do you mean that you could have forgiven him if hed left you for a woman,but not if hes left you for an idea?You think youre a match for the one,but against the other youre helpless?’
Mrs Strickland gave me a look in which I read no great friendliness,but did not answer.Perhaps I had struck home.She went on in a low and trembling voice:
‘I never knew it was possible to hate anyone as much as I hate him.Do you know,Ive been comforting myself by thinking that however long it lasted hed want me at the end.I knew when he was dying hed send for me,and I was ready to go;Id have nursed him like a mother,and at the last Id have told him that it didnt matter,Id loved him always,and I forgave him everything.’
I have always been a little disconcerted by the passion women have for behaving beautifully at the deathbed of those they love.Sometimes it seems as if they grudge the longevity which postpones their chance of an effective scene.
‘But now-now its finished.Im as indifferent to him as if he were a stranger.I should like him to die miserable,poor,and starving,without a friend.I hope hell rot with some loathsome disease.Ive done with him.’
I thought it as well then to say what Strickland had suggested.
‘If you want to divorce him,hes quite willing to do whatever is necessary to make it possible.’
‘Why should I give him his freedom?’
‘I dont think he wants it.He merely thought it might be more convenient to you.’
Mrs Strickland shrugged her shoulders impatiently.I think I was a little disappointed in her.I expected then people to be more of a piece than I do now,and I was distressed to find so much vindictiveness in so charming a creature.I did not realize how motley are the qualities that go to make up a human being.Now I am well aware that pettiness and grandeur,malice and charity,hatred and love,can find place side by side in the same human heart.
I wondered if there was anything I could say that would ease the sense of bitter humiliation which at present tormented Mrs Strickland.I thought I would try.
‘You know,Im not sure that your husband is quite responsible for his actions.I do not think he is himself.He seems to me to be possessed by some power which is using him for its own ends,and in whose hold he is as helpless as a fly in a spiders web.Its as though someone had cast a spell over him.Im reminded of those strange stories one sometimes hears of another personality entering into a man and driving out the old one.The soul lives unstably in the body,and is capable of mysterious transformations.In the old days they would say Charles Strickland had a devil.’
Mrs MacAndrew smoothed down the lap of her gown,and gold bangles fell over her wrists.
‘All that seems to me very farfetched’,she said acidly.‘I dont deny that perhaps Amy took her husband a little too much for granted.If she hadnt been so busy with her own affairs,I cant believe that she wouldnt have suspected something was the matter.I dont think that Alec could have something on his mind for a year or more without my having a pretty shrewd idea of it.’
The Colonel stared into vacancy,and I wondered whether anyone could be quite so innocent of guile as he looked.
‘But that doesnt prevent the fact that Charles Strickland is a heartless beast.’She looked at me severely.‘I can tell you why he left his wife-from pure selfishness and nothing else whatever.’
‘That is certainly the simplest explanation’,I said.But I thought it explained nothing.When,saying I was tired,I rose to go,Mrs Strickland made no attempt to detain me.